learn from me

on the off chance that spending a thanksgiving away from the people you love, alone and without turkey, mashed potatoes or cranberry sauce...my thanksgiving went from crappy to the worst day of my life in the blink of an eye...

lesson of the day class...
don't trust anyone...especially if it seems to good to be true.

people are evil, sleazy and slimy - at least some of them are

the worst part is that the more i tell the story the more retarded i sound...i cant even believe i fell for this...i thought i was a smarter person than this...but then this happens and it makes me doubt everything i thought i knew.

same story i am sure you have heard before...selling something on craigslist...it was a scam...and now i have no money in my bank account because the check was a fake and i wired money...

so you ask - why did you ignore the signs (i didn't see them i was so far in and not paying attention)
- why didn't you tell someone about it - no sane person would have let me do this - but its just not something i would have thought to talk to someone about
- at what point in time did this sound like it was a reasonable thing to do - honestly the scammer had a reason and a story for everything and i bought it

call me too trusting, call me naive, call me stupid - trust me i agree with every one of these sentiments...

but up until thursday i thought that there was good in people...i thought that people were not naturally evil and i never thought this would happen to me

a thanksgiving to remember...or at least one never to be forgotten...despite how hard i try

danger to myself

the past week has left me bruised, banged up and even bloody...all self inflicted (in case anyone was concerned)

take last sunday...cleaning the bathroom and (only i) manager to slice off the top of my finger on the new window...

monday morning...cold and frosty outside...heel slips out from under me...i slip on the steps outside the house and go crashing down and land on (my ass and) the underside of my forearm...a bruise and scrape that has gone from red to purple to a nice green and yellow color -

i make it through tuesday, wednesday and thursday before any additional injuries occur only to top off my week with the doozie...

friday was crazy...11,000 people, every major media outlet, only stop on the tour that has sold out...and i was in a hurry...tv station left alone in the lower level of the arena...and i am running to try to catch up with them...my heel gets caught in the hem of my pants and i go flying head over heel down 15 stairs...laying on the platform landing thinking that i am in a lot of pain but i have to get up because if my boss finds out the the station is alone in the building...my ass is grass (bruised or not) so i stagger to my feel...brush the dirt off my pants and try to collect myself before heading back out into the world. painful night, even more painful saturday spent on the couch unable to move the left side of my body which is quickly becoming one large black and blue patch...

call it what you will...i am not a graceful person...i never have been...but this was a week that i will not quickly forget. anyone know where i can find a nice padded room to call home for a while...

-crash

all smiles

you have no idea what you do to me
i sit still and try to focus and you are all that comes to my mind
i see myself with you and it makes me happy
i think of you and it makes my heart skip a beat
i hear your voice and it strips away everything else in my world that is wrong
i can spend hours on the phone and talk about nothing
i know you are the one
i know it is only a matter of time
i count down the seconds until i can see you again
i long to be in your arms, to feel your warmth, to kiss you

tomorrow marks one month until i am with you
tomorrow marks an eternity until i can be next to you
tomorrow marks time as it passes us by in the blink of an eye and it will be here

you say things like i love you more than you will ever know...
you tell me you want nothing more than to be with me...
you say it doesn't matter when, where or how but we will be together...
you tell me i am the one that makes you happy...

and i know in my heart...that i have found my true love

third times a charm...

really...you are going to give me relationship advice...

you with the failed marriages...
you who does not talk to me for more than a month...and seem to be fine with that
you who married her...
you who side with her...


fine you dont want me get hurt...
fine you dont want me to make the same mistakes

but catching up every two months does not even begin to give you the true insight into my life

you dont know him
you dont know how he makes me feel
you dont know how he loves me

i wont make your mistake...because when i make that commitment...its forever...not just until someone else comes along...

long days, stupid people and smiles

today was such an odd day...

go home...the work will be there tomorrow (true but so will all the other work that has to be done tomorrow)

why not stop at a completely green light, put your breaks on at every single street and almost cause an accident...sounds like just an average day in des moines

shawn johnson returns to her hometown for show, arena almost sold out, but we get tasha something or other (don't bother to look her up...you wont find anything) for our pr day...and they say we have stopped doing things to sell tickets...sure)

11,000 and falling...fourth year in the market, no title sponsor, event failing, crazy pr schedule but to no avail...this show is failing and its killing me because i don't fail

abc is launching a retro digital platform...really...so on the off chance i am in the mood for a little knight rider at 6:00 on any given night...i know where to turn to...even the a-team...watch out!!

forwarded email this morning...nothing but smiles...i love that you want to tell her how much you love me...how much you think of me...how much you want to be with me...i love that you know just as much as i do that you are the one...

creative ideas...you inspire me...you make me think...you help me keep my sanity...random emails with funny names...special little moments that make my day tolerable

best friends...truly blessed...i love that you love that i am in love...i love that you are all there for me (you know who you are) i love the questions...when would the wedding be...can we make sure its not in the winter...i want to be there and there is this big test that i cant move...would it be big...what would we wear...all this in the middle of the work day...something has to take me away....

to be four again...

my friend jilly sent me an email today with some of the responses given by 4-8 year-olds when asked what it means to love someone...

the answers will (pleasantly) surprise you and might even bring a tear to your eye...


'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' - Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' - Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.' - Karl - age 5

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.' - Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' - Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' - Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss' - Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' - Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,' - Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.' - Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.' - Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.' - Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody...You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.' - Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.' - Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.' - Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.' - Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' - Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image) - Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.' - Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' - Jessica - age 8

And the final one...The best was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

the purity and innocence that exist in a child's eye gives me hope...we should all be so lucky to view the world through the eyes of a child!

short and sweet

Being in love is such an amazing feeling...

falling asleep with a smile...
waking up with a smile...
having my heart skip a beat when he says those three wonderful words...
now more than anything i know that i want to be with you forever...and even that might not be long enough

amazing!!