cheese and love...

for my beautiful and amazing friends abby...

thoughts on life and love from a littleperson in the book who moved my cheese

what would you do if you weren't afraid...

you have already taken the first step and moved out of your comfort zone...don't be afraid of what the world might put in your path


the quicker you let go of old cheese, the sooner you find new cheese...

he is the worst kind of old cheese...stinky, smelly and makes you sick...easier said than done - but you must let go of him to find new (and better) cheese

imagining myself enjoying new cheese even before i find it leads me to it...

it is only after you see that you deserve to be loved and adored as you are will you truly begin to see the new cheese you need in your life...

it is safer to search in the maze than remain in a cheeseless situation...

you are better off now that you are out searching for what makes you happy than staying in the situation you were in - that was not healthy for you or your self esteem.

keep your head up beautiful...

and one day...new cheese will come along and you will realize why it never worked with any other cheese...

i love you my beautiful friend

time flies...but not fast enough

one day down...three more to go...

so much to do - but who cares
so much to finish - but i cant even focus
already packed - can i leave tomorrow

i try not to wish days away - as they seem to go by fast enough on their own - but i want nothing more than the next three days to fly by!!

is it thursday yet?

i want to be your everything

25 reasons you have my heart...

25. you never let me get away with saying that i love you more
24. you southern accent that comes out when you don't think about it
23. your wonderful parents and the way they raised you
22. the year of challenges we went through to get to where we are today
21. your eyes
20. the way you smell my hair
19. hours or minutes spent on the phone - i just love hearing your voice
18. dog
17. you know what i am going to say before i even say it
16. football and good beer
15. how sexy you look when you shave your head
14. how sexy you make me feel
13. the amazing sex
12. that you know what you lost and fought to get it back
11. you let your guard down and let me in
10. your stone pants and purple shirt
9. wrestling
8. that you respect and embrace my independence
7. how safe i feel in your arms
6. the fact that i am willing to spend two months alone for the chance to spend three days with you
5. your passion for what you do
4. the love and respect you have for your family
3. that i can see myself having your children
2. your loyalty to your friends regardless of how near or far you are from them
1. that you spend everyday proving your love to me even though you know you don't have to

be an example

children learn what they live...
(by dorothy law nolte)

if children live with criticism, they learn to condemn
if children live with hostility, they learn to fight
if children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive
if children life with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves
if children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy
if children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy
if children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty

but...

if children live with encouragement, they learn confidence
if children live with tolerance, they learn patience
if children live with praise, they learn appreciation
if children live with acceptance, they learn to love
if children live with approval, they learn to like themselves
if children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal
if children live with sharing, they learn generosity
if children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness
if children live with fairness, they learn justice
if children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect
if children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and those about them
if children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live


how do you impact the lives of those around you - do you practice what you preach?

learn from me

on the off chance that spending a thanksgiving away from the people you love, alone and without turkey, mashed potatoes or cranberry sauce...my thanksgiving went from crappy to the worst day of my life in the blink of an eye...

lesson of the day class...
don't trust anyone...especially if it seems to good to be true.

people are evil, sleazy and slimy - at least some of them are

the worst part is that the more i tell the story the more retarded i sound...i cant even believe i fell for this...i thought i was a smarter person than this...but then this happens and it makes me doubt everything i thought i knew.

same story i am sure you have heard before...selling something on craigslist...it was a scam...and now i have no money in my bank account because the check was a fake and i wired money...

so you ask - why did you ignore the signs (i didn't see them i was so far in and not paying attention)
- why didn't you tell someone about it - no sane person would have let me do this - but its just not something i would have thought to talk to someone about
- at what point in time did this sound like it was a reasonable thing to do - honestly the scammer had a reason and a story for everything and i bought it

call me too trusting, call me naive, call me stupid - trust me i agree with every one of these sentiments...

but up until thursday i thought that there was good in people...i thought that people were not naturally evil and i never thought this would happen to me

a thanksgiving to remember...or at least one never to be forgotten...despite how hard i try

danger to myself

the past week has left me bruised, banged up and even bloody...all self inflicted (in case anyone was concerned)

take last sunday...cleaning the bathroom and (only i) manager to slice off the top of my finger on the new window...

monday morning...cold and frosty outside...heel slips out from under me...i slip on the steps outside the house and go crashing down and land on (my ass and) the underside of my forearm...a bruise and scrape that has gone from red to purple to a nice green and yellow color -

i make it through tuesday, wednesday and thursday before any additional injuries occur only to top off my week with the doozie...

friday was crazy...11,000 people, every major media outlet, only stop on the tour that has sold out...and i was in a hurry...tv station left alone in the lower level of the arena...and i am running to try to catch up with them...my heel gets caught in the hem of my pants and i go flying head over heel down 15 stairs...laying on the platform landing thinking that i am in a lot of pain but i have to get up because if my boss finds out the the station is alone in the building...my ass is grass (bruised or not) so i stagger to my feel...brush the dirt off my pants and try to collect myself before heading back out into the world. painful night, even more painful saturday spent on the couch unable to move the left side of my body which is quickly becoming one large black and blue patch...

call it what you will...i am not a graceful person...i never have been...but this was a week that i will not quickly forget. anyone know where i can find a nice padded room to call home for a while...

-crash

all smiles

you have no idea what you do to me
i sit still and try to focus and you are all that comes to my mind
i see myself with you and it makes me happy
i think of you and it makes my heart skip a beat
i hear your voice and it strips away everything else in my world that is wrong
i can spend hours on the phone and talk about nothing
i know you are the one
i know it is only a matter of time
i count down the seconds until i can see you again
i long to be in your arms, to feel your warmth, to kiss you

tomorrow marks one month until i am with you
tomorrow marks an eternity until i can be next to you
tomorrow marks time as it passes us by in the blink of an eye and it will be here

you say things like i love you more than you will ever know...
you tell me you want nothing more than to be with me...
you say it doesn't matter when, where or how but we will be together...
you tell me i am the one that makes you happy...

and i know in my heart...that i have found my true love