i want to be your everything

25 reasons you have my heart...

25. you never let me get away with saying that i love you more
24. you southern accent that comes out when you don't think about it
23. your wonderful parents and the way they raised you
22. the year of challenges we went through to get to where we are today
21. your eyes
20. the way you smell my hair
19. hours or minutes spent on the phone - i just love hearing your voice
18. dog
17. you know what i am going to say before i even say it
16. football and good beer
15. how sexy you look when you shave your head
14. how sexy you make me feel
13. the amazing sex
12. that you know what you lost and fought to get it back
11. you let your guard down and let me in
10. your stone pants and purple shirt
9. wrestling
8. that you respect and embrace my independence
7. how safe i feel in your arms
6. the fact that i am willing to spend two months alone for the chance to spend three days with you
5. your passion for what you do
4. the love and respect you have for your family
3. that i can see myself having your children
2. your loyalty to your friends regardless of how near or far you are from them
1. that you spend everyday proving your love to me even though you know you don't have to

when all is said and done...

at the end of the day

when i am laying in bed

and its (sort of) quiet

and i don't have to think about anything

and i try to push all the other thoughts from my head

and not worry about tomorrow

i think of you

i think of being in your arms

i think of how i would give anything to see you

i think of the next two months i have to make it through before i see you

i think of how things will work out

i think of when they will work out

i think of the future and know that i want you to be a part of it

i think of the past and all the times we took for granted

i think of this moment and know that i am strong enough to be away from you

i think of you and how much i love you

and i am happy...

9:09

its 9:08 in the morning

i could not sleep last night

i took a flying leap out of bed this morning without the assistance of my alarm clock telling me its time to wake up

i cant sit still

i can barely focus

i am watching the clock...9:09...counting down the minutes until 11:00

you said you could not wait to see me last night...and that made my heart smile

you still give me butterflies...you still make me weak...you still make my heart skip a beat

i said "i will see you tomorrow" last night...and there is nothing that makes me happier.

9:13...

i want to know whats in her head

my friends think i am crazy...
your friends think i am crazy...
my mom has no clue why i am doing this...
even your mom wants to know what is going through my head...

but i don't care...
i know what i am doing...
i know what i want...
and i know that what i want is to be in your arms...

am i crazy...silly...stupid...maybe

but i would be crazy, silly and stupid not to follow my heart...

an hour and a half into a conversation with two people who loath talking on the phone...

i long to be in your arms...to be wrapped in your embrace...to feel your smile as you hold me...to have you smell my hair and know that its one of your favorite smells...to be with you...to be a part of you...

if only for a moment...if only for this weekend - i simply want to be yours...

"meeting you was fate...becoming your friend was by choice...falling in
love with you was beyond my control"