when all is said and done...

at the end of the day

when i am laying in bed

and its (sort of) quiet

and i don't have to think about anything

and i try to push all the other thoughts from my head

and not worry about tomorrow

i think of you

i think of being in your arms

i think of how i would give anything to see you

i think of the next two months i have to make it through before i see you

i think of how things will work out

i think of when they will work out

i think of the future and know that i want you to be a part of it

i think of the past and all the times we took for granted

i think of this moment and know that i am strong enough to be away from you

i think of you and how much i love you

and i am happy...

9:09

its 9:08 in the morning

i could not sleep last night

i took a flying leap out of bed this morning without the assistance of my alarm clock telling me its time to wake up

i cant sit still

i can barely focus

i am watching the clock...9:09...counting down the minutes until 11:00

you said you could not wait to see me last night...and that made my heart smile

you still give me butterflies...you still make me weak...you still make my heart skip a beat

i said "i will see you tomorrow" last night...and there is nothing that makes me happier.

9:13...

i want to know whats in her head

my friends think i am crazy...
your friends think i am crazy...
my mom has no clue why i am doing this...
even your mom wants to know what is going through my head...

but i don't care...
i know what i am doing...
i know what i want...
and i know that what i want is to be in your arms...

am i crazy...silly...stupid...maybe

but i would be crazy, silly and stupid not to follow my heart...

i know i'll see you again

i honestly believe that sometimes life gives you things that are worth it...no matter what "it" may be...


"distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. it's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. it's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough"