the knots you untie...

as september grinds to a halt and the end of the year seems to be about as inevitable as the browns having a less than winning season...i figured i would take a look at what the next three months will entail.

(as of october 1)

91 days...
14 weeks...
5,460 hours...
327,600 minutes...
6 pay checks
4 holidays
9 college game days...
13 NFL sundays...
8 walking with dinosaur shows
1 rock concert
3 days of arenacross
1 night of tumbling and awesomely bad disney channel music
3 days of food & wine
6 performances with mickey and co

1 very important addition to my "family"
4 dancing irishmen
1 rock christmas show
1 (more) move
329 miles driving to chicago to see my momma
2 hours to omaha
1 trip out west
countless beers


2009...

life as seen through a buggy windshield

673 miles gives one a lot of time to think

9 hours of trying not to reason my way out of turning around will have any one's mind looking for a reprieve

top 10 things i learned while looking through my bug splattered windshield...

10) Nebraska might be the worst state in the country to drive through - 1000 miles spent driving across that state will drive anyone crazy

9) they just breed bugs bigger out there...and maybe a little dumber as many an insect met an untimely demise slamming into my car at 80+ miles an hour

8) being able to legally go over 75 miles an hour is about the only redeeming thing in that state

7) there is just nothing more beautiful than driving west into the sunset

6) holy hell there are a lot of cows out there

5) sometimes the best music is the mix cd's you made in college and have not listened to in years

4) there is not a stretch of more than 30 miles without construction - while it is nice to be able to flow at 75+...don't plan on using your cruise control

3) the drive becomes a lot harder when you know there is a flight that would have gotten you there already

2) some people just really love their hot dogs...i actually saw a grown man cry when the lady at the flying j told him his hot dog would not be ready for another 10 minutes (who knew it even took 10 minutes to cook one of those bad boys)

and...

1) you were worth it...

9:09

its 9:08 in the morning

i could not sleep last night

i took a flying leap out of bed this morning without the assistance of my alarm clock telling me its time to wake up

i cant sit still

i can barely focus

i am watching the clock...9:09...counting down the minutes until 11:00

you said you could not wait to see me last night...and that made my heart smile

you still give me butterflies...you still make me weak...you still make my heart skip a beat

i said "i will see you tomorrow" last night...and there is nothing that makes me happier.

9:13...

i want to know whats in her head

my friends think i am crazy...
your friends think i am crazy...
my mom has no clue why i am doing this...
even your mom wants to know what is going through my head...

but i don't care...
i know what i am doing...
i know what i want...
and i know that what i want is to be in your arms...

am i crazy...silly...stupid...maybe

but i would be crazy, silly and stupid not to follow my heart...

testing the theory that "what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger"

my head hurts and my boss keeps asking me if i am alright...not alright with work but alright in general.

yes i am alright - i don't have any other choice but to be alright - what is the alternative? not alright...which means what?

in my conversation (with the one person who understands me and why i do what i do more than anyone else) yesterday, he made a very valid point.

my boss asks if i am holding up and if i have everything under control (and by everything i mean my shows and some of his on top of all my other work that is piling up)

what do i say...no...to which i would get...well - why cant you handle it...maybe this is not the right industry for you...why are you struggling to get everything done...do we need to talk about time management?

so i say yes...and work from home, or stay at the office until 8:00

its not like i have anything better to do at this point in time...

i miss you...i miss my family...i miss my best friends...my head hurts!!

an hour and a half into a conversation with two people who loath talking on the phone...

i long to be in your arms...to be wrapped in your embrace...to feel your smile as you hold me...to have you smell my hair and know that its one of your favorite smells...to be with you...to be a part of you...

if only for a moment...if only for this weekend - i simply want to be yours...

"meeting you was fate...becoming your friend was by choice...falling in
love with you was beyond my control"

sarcastic dinosaurs do exist

maybe one of the coolest things i have ever seen...baby t-rex (star of walking with dinosaurs:the live experience) is in dsm today.

aside from the obviously amazing creation - i can not even begin to describe to you the detail and thought that went into this thing - but the best part was the actor who was operating the dinosaur.

justin - who was inside controlling baby t - had us cracking up all morning as he brought baby t to life with funny comments, jokes, noises and animation - giving baby t a personality reminisicent of vince vaughn - i half expected him to start quoting lines from old school or wedding crashers

my favorite line from this morning (and please keep in mind i have been up since 4:30) was after kcci finished the live shot and told baby t he was done for a little while - he said - through the sound system in the suit - "i'll be in my trailer"

maybe it was the lack of sleep, maybe it was the entire situation, maybe it was just really funny...who knows - but i laughed!!