learn from me

on the off chance that spending a thanksgiving away from the people you love, alone and without turkey, mashed potatoes or cranberry sauce...my thanksgiving went from crappy to the worst day of my life in the blink of an eye...

lesson of the day class...
don't trust anyone...especially if it seems to good to be true.

people are evil, sleazy and slimy - at least some of them are

the worst part is that the more i tell the story the more retarded i sound...i cant even believe i fell for this...i thought i was a smarter person than this...but then this happens and it makes me doubt everything i thought i knew.

same story i am sure you have heard before...selling something on craigslist...it was a scam...and now i have no money in my bank account because the check was a fake and i wired money...

so you ask - why did you ignore the signs (i didn't see them i was so far in and not paying attention)
- why didn't you tell someone about it - no sane person would have let me do this - but its just not something i would have thought to talk to someone about
- at what point in time did this sound like it was a reasonable thing to do - honestly the scammer had a reason and a story for everything and i bought it

call me too trusting, call me naive, call me stupid - trust me i agree with every one of these sentiments...

but up until thursday i thought that there was good in people...i thought that people were not naturally evil and i never thought this would happen to me

a thanksgiving to remember...or at least one never to be forgotten...despite how hard i try

danger to myself

the past week has left me bruised, banged up and even bloody...all self inflicted (in case anyone was concerned)

take last sunday...cleaning the bathroom and (only i) manager to slice off the top of my finger on the new window...

monday morning...cold and frosty outside...heel slips out from under me...i slip on the steps outside the house and go crashing down and land on (my ass and) the underside of my forearm...a bruise and scrape that has gone from red to purple to a nice green and yellow color -

i make it through tuesday, wednesday and thursday before any additional injuries occur only to top off my week with the doozie...

friday was crazy...11,000 people, every major media outlet, only stop on the tour that has sold out...and i was in a hurry...tv station left alone in the lower level of the arena...and i am running to try to catch up with them...my heel gets caught in the hem of my pants and i go flying head over heel down 15 stairs...laying on the platform landing thinking that i am in a lot of pain but i have to get up because if my boss finds out the the station is alone in the building...my ass is grass (bruised or not) so i stagger to my feel...brush the dirt off my pants and try to collect myself before heading back out into the world. painful night, even more painful saturday spent on the couch unable to move the left side of my body which is quickly becoming one large black and blue patch...

call it what you will...i am not a graceful person...i never have been...but this was a week that i will not quickly forget. anyone know where i can find a nice padded room to call home for a while...

-crash

all smiles

you have no idea what you do to me
i sit still and try to focus and you are all that comes to my mind
i see myself with you and it makes me happy
i think of you and it makes my heart skip a beat
i hear your voice and it strips away everything else in my world that is wrong
i can spend hours on the phone and talk about nothing
i know you are the one
i know it is only a matter of time
i count down the seconds until i can see you again
i long to be in your arms, to feel your warmth, to kiss you

tomorrow marks one month until i am with you
tomorrow marks an eternity until i can be next to you
tomorrow marks time as it passes us by in the blink of an eye and it will be here

you say things like i love you more than you will ever know...
you tell me you want nothing more than to be with me...
you say it doesn't matter when, where or how but we will be together...
you tell me i am the one that makes you happy...

and i know in my heart...that i have found my true love