third times a charm...

really...you are going to give me relationship advice...

you with the failed marriages...
you who does not talk to me for more than a month...and seem to be fine with that
you who married her...
you who side with her...


fine you dont want me get hurt...
fine you dont want me to make the same mistakes

but catching up every two months does not even begin to give you the true insight into my life

you dont know him
you dont know how he makes me feel
you dont know how he loves me

i wont make your mistake...because when i make that commitment...its forever...not just until someone else comes along...

long days, stupid people and smiles

today was such an odd day...

go home...the work will be there tomorrow (true but so will all the other work that has to be done tomorrow)

why not stop at a completely green light, put your breaks on at every single street and almost cause an accident...sounds like just an average day in des moines

shawn johnson returns to her hometown for show, arena almost sold out, but we get tasha something or other (don't bother to look her up...you wont find anything) for our pr day...and they say we have stopped doing things to sell tickets...sure)

11,000 and falling...fourth year in the market, no title sponsor, event failing, crazy pr schedule but to no avail...this show is failing and its killing me because i don't fail

abc is launching a retro digital platform...really...so on the off chance i am in the mood for a little knight rider at 6:00 on any given night...i know where to turn to...even the a-team...watch out!!

forwarded email this morning...nothing but smiles...i love that you want to tell her how much you love me...how much you think of me...how much you want to be with me...i love that you know just as much as i do that you are the one...

creative ideas...you inspire me...you make me think...you help me keep my sanity...random emails with funny names...special little moments that make my day tolerable

best friends...truly blessed...i love that you love that i am in love...i love that you are all there for me (you know who you are) i love the questions...when would the wedding be...can we make sure its not in the winter...i want to be there and there is this big test that i cant move...would it be big...what would we wear...all this in the middle of the work day...something has to take me away....

to be four again...

my friend jilly sent me an email today with some of the responses given by 4-8 year-olds when asked what it means to love someone...

the answers will (pleasantly) surprise you and might even bring a tear to your eye...


'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.' - Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.' - Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.' - Karl - age 5

Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.' - Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.' - Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.' - Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss' - Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.' - Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,' - Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.' - Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.' - Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.' - Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody...You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.' - Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.' - Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.' - Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.' - Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.' - Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image) - Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.' - Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.' - Jessica - age 8

And the final one...The best was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, 'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

the purity and innocence that exist in a child's eye gives me hope...we should all be so lucky to view the world through the eyes of a child!

short and sweet

Being in love is such an amazing feeling...

falling asleep with a smile...
waking up with a smile...
having my heart skip a beat when he says those three wonderful words...
now more than anything i know that i want to be with you forever...and even that might not be long enough

amazing!!

ode to my jilly and my attempt to be happy

in honor of one of the most beautiful and amazing girls i know (who also happens to be one of my best friends) i am going to take a moment and look at the things i enjoy about life (as i am trending on the negative right now)

26 things i like (in no particular order)


26. getting dressed up
25. my friends - i am blessed
24. hiding under my big blanket and falling asleep to the sounds of the rain
23. reading books that actually enlighten my outlook on life and the people who will discuss the books with me regardless of how many times i bring it up
22. history - and the fact that we are making history with this election and economic crisis- i wonder if my children will learn about this time in school like we learned about watergate, the great depression and jfk
21. my mother...she is the most amazing, independent and beautiful woman i know and i owe her so much
20. sushi (and white wine)
19. a long run
18. coffee with an obnoxious amount of french vanilla creamer
17. margarita and fajita night with scott
16. my grandparents and the fact that they have been married for over 50 years - it gives me hope
15. gracie lou, beinna and nikki
14. the smell of aveda products
13. being in your arms
12. katt williams dvds
11. a great pair of shoes
10. the talking stitch that sits at my desk
9. text messages
8. knowing that you think about me (a lot)
7. raw pillsbury crescent roll dough
6. a cold beer and a mushroom swiss burger from francies
5. being in love
4. a sweatshirt, sweatpants, ponytail and my glasses
3. spending a saturday by the pool in the middle of summer
2. amazing sex
1. the way you love the way i smell

Do they sell insurance for these sorts of things...

pardon my reference to a recent marketing campaign...but give me a break...i work in advertising...

you know that place where all i can do is laugh because if i actually stopped to think about everything going on in my life i would break down into tears, curl up in a ball and never face the world again and i need a vacation meet...i'm there

you know that place where i can't think about anyone else and i really wonder what the next step might be meet...i'm there

you know that place where i just want to go home, curl up on the coach and lose myself in law & order mini marathons (can you really call it a marathon if its on all the time) and i cant possibly have one more thing put on my plate meet...i'm there

you know that place where i know i want to spend the rest of my life with you and the next year seems like an eternity meet...i'm there

you know that place where spending time with friends seems to be getting farther and farther away and i am starting to wonder how important sleep really is meet...i'm there

when all is said and done...

at the end of the day

when i am laying in bed

and its (sort of) quiet

and i don't have to think about anything

and i try to push all the other thoughts from my head

and not worry about tomorrow

i think of you

i think of being in your arms

i think of how i would give anything to see you

i think of the next two months i have to make it through before i see you

i think of how things will work out

i think of when they will work out

i think of the future and know that i want you to be a part of it

i think of the past and all the times we took for granted

i think of this moment and know that i am strong enough to be away from you

i think of you and how much i love you

and i am happy...

the shadow of the day

i am annoyed...irritated...tired...stressed...i am sure there are other words...but i can't think of them right now (plays into that tired part)

i want to curl up into a ball and hide from the world...for no other reason than i would rather not face life right now

dramatic...maybe...but i am allowed to be dramatic every once in a while...or all the time...which seems to be an overwhelming (yet redeeming) quality of my chaotic personality

surprised by the happenings of the day...

shocked that it was just put out there like that...

questioning how it even came up...

wondering why you don't seem even the slightest bit bothered by it...

or maybe you are and i just don't know it yet...

its amazing how in life a non response sends your mind into a tizzy (what is a tizzy anyway)

what's that saying about "no news is good news" (does that even apply here)

i am not sure if you care...i am not sure i care...i am not sure what to think right now...

this is how my mind is running right now...

this is how my mind is working right now...

its 7:41 and i am still at work...maybe because i don't want to go home - boy is that an awkward place right now - but i will write it off as "we have dinos tonight" and rest on the idea that i would rather be here for 16 hours than face the rest of the world...

so much to do...no motivation to do it...

stupid things are starting to bother me...things i should not even let creep into my head...what is wrong with me today? snap out of it...or don't...but stop bitching about it at least...

life...random...

you probably want the few minutes of your life back that you spent reading this...eh...chalk it up to another disappointment

the end of the world?

it's d day...and the d stands for dinosaurs

this is the most intense show i have had the chance to work on - so many moving parts both figuratively and literally

i can't believe that its october 1
i can't believe that dinos is here already
i can't believe that we are going full speed ahead into our busy season

go dinos!