indie makes me happy

this morning was not such a great drive to work...every route was plagued by a major accident forcing me to take back roads which in reality took just as long if not longer but at least i was moving...sort of!

while i was in a really crappy mood when i pulled up to work...i saw my friend vicki walking with her granddaughter into the building. little indie is maybe a year old and is one of the most adorable little girls ever! she had on a little long sleeve polo dress, leggings and silver sparkly shoes that she proceeded to show to everyone. her dark brown hair was pulled into high pigtails and was a total mess...but in a way that an adorable little kid can totally pull off.

she had the biggest smile on her face...and the best part was that vicki had an even bigger smile on her face.

it made me realize that regardless of how i am feeling, or what i am going through, or where i stand today...there are things that can make you happy and leave you fulfilled...

love finding stuff like this

just found a really fun site that pays "homage" to Cleveland...which also happens to be THE BEST CITY IN THE WORLD!

check it out...classics including .10 beer night, kardiac kids, and kosar for president!

and for those of your who happen to live outside of this great place...there are some other fun shirts that allow you to voice your appeal voice loud and clear!

click here!

BELIEVELAND!!!

unsettled

so i am feeling a little unsettled today...

i have a few ideas as to why i feel this way but i am not committed to sharing them just yet - to many things up in the air.

i struggled to get out of bed this morning - og was so snuggly...she is the true essence of a "snuggle puggle"

mike is going to Denver with Brint next weekend...its good for him and it makes me happy that we can both do things with friends that we want to do...

next weekend is mother's day...and i will spend it alone. i miss my family...i miss my friends...i miss home!

kickboxing tonight - that should help! i feel so good after i am done...exhausted but awesome!

thought for the day...
do you feel like you belong where you are?

random question for work...

thoughts on web streaming...if you have any.

i would love to hear where you stand!

Four More Months...

so i did a little math today and it dawned on me that we are a short four months away from our wedding...

exactly...

i would sit here and list all the things that i still have to do but just the thought of it is making my head spin.

then i was sitting there thinking about the last five years of my life and how much has changed.

lets see -

i have lived in more cities than i want to mention (6)
i have seen friends get married
i have friends that are pregnant
i have seen friends have babies
i have seen friends fall apart
i have seen friends pick themselves up and move on with their life
i have seen friends lose family
i have loved and lost - for the best
i have loved regardless of what it took - and for that i am so grateful!
i have found the love of my life
i have had jobs that fulfill me
i have had a job that left me empty
i have been broke and actually qualified for poverty status on my taxes
i have made bad decisions
i have gone on my first "big girl" trip with my three best friends
i have cried because i felt more alone than i ever thought possible
i have cried because i was happy
i have cried because i was hurt
i have cried because i was mad
i have gotten mad and fought back
i have gotten mad and did nothing about it
i have learned what makes me happy
i have gained weight
i have lost weight
i have figured out how to balance
i have grown to appreciate my family completely
i have had situational friends that i wouldn't trade for anything even though i no longer talk to them
i have truly found my three best friends who i know without fail would drop everything and do anything for me
i have found the man who completes me
i have found that the love you get from your friends, family and future husband is very different than the love you get from your dogs
i have found that i can love something with all my heart and do anything for it (yes i am talking about my dogs)
i have found that religion is not important to me but my relationship with God is
i have come to realize that i can't live without my blackberry
i have to wonder what people did before email
i have staeted to find my place!

i am going to attempt to write more often - i have been slacking and for no other reason than i forget about it at time!

four months...